Last week I spent an evening with one of my best friends.
I've missed him, our lives have been so busy its been near impossible to spend time with each other. He took me out to a play, well I should say I was dragged along to his last minute theater assignment, but it was so typical of him. We talked almost the whole play, luckily it was Beauty and the Beast so at the very least BS'ing it and the paper shouldn't be too hard. I think we covered just about every topic out there. One that we really got stuck on was the fact that you always hear adults say Highschool and their teenage years were the best years of their lives. It was troubling to both of us seing as we only have one more year of these really, and to this point neither of us could look back on the years and deem them as "fun".
"Frustrating", "Demanding", "Disappointing", "Stressful" where more of the words that came to mind. We are both working jobs, yes jobs, plural. We are both doing extra schooling. And we are both passionate about our sports. We have no time for a social life, except for the spare chances like that night or when I get a couple hours to spend with special people. Those almost make things worse, those couple hours away from everything make it so much harder to come back to every day life.
Is this how it's supposed to be? Is being an adult just so completely terrible that this time is great by comparison? No, I think we are doing something wrong.
The need for change has been long coming. I've been far too stressed out to maintain a healthy level of sanity. This isn't how things should be. Time for a new game plan. Now if I could figure out what that should be...
Are we doing what we want? Yes, I want to do what I am doing. I am working to fund my sports and my life really in general, I want to take on that schooling to better my future, I love my sport and wouldn't put anything but my whole heart into it. So yeah, I am doing what I want. So why am I not happy? Why can't I say these are the best days of my life?
I need to figure that out.
Is this how it's supposed to be? Is being an adult just so completely terrible that this time is great by comparison? No, I think we are doing something wrong.
The need for change has been long coming. I've been far too stressed out to maintain a healthy level of sanity. This isn't how things should be. Time for a new game plan. Now if I could figure out what that should be...
Are we doing what we want? Yes, I want to do what I am doing. I am working to fund my sports and my life really in general, I want to take on that schooling to better my future, I love my sport and wouldn't put anything but my whole heart into it. So yeah, I am doing what I want. So why am I not happy? Why can't I say these are the best days of my life?
I need to figure that out.
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