Love thyself

I wish people would always say everything that came to their minds.

It makes things a lot easier. Relationships with people a lot easier. At least I think so. 

I like knowing exactly what people are thinking. Some people filter their thoughts too much. It makes it hard to understand them and to read them. They become too closed off from everyone even if it doesn't seem like they really are. Keeping thoughts locked up like that becomes really tiring on a person and starts to pick at them. It is something I am working on doing less. I am having a hard time keeping everything so closed off from everyone. 

There is this guy I know and I cannot figure him out for the life of me. 

Almost every time I talk to him I feel like I end up spilling my life story just so I can get him to say one or two things about himself. It's a lot of work ha ha. He just doesn't talk about himself, he worries about everyone else before himself and its driving me insane. Not that it is a bad thing that he cares about other people, but how does that one thing go again? 

Love thy neighbor as thyself

Oh right. I feel like he doesn't like himself so he doesn't worry about how he is feeling as long as someone else is happy. He never wants to talk about how he is feeling and when I ask him about it he just closes himself off from me. Even when he does talk there isn't much said, or shared. I really do want to listen to his issues, I want to help him help himself. But I don't think he wants himself to be happy. It seems like he is punishing himself for something and won't let himself be happy. I'm not sure what to do with him. I wish I could read his mind. If he just spilt all of the thoughts he's having, I think things would get easier. At least I would know where I stood. 

Its just plain frustrating. If we would stop pushing our thoughts out of the way to make way for thoughts about what we should say, the would would be a lot better off. 

At least those are my thoughts.