Lists

Sometimes I write things on my "to-do" lists that I've already done, just so I can check them off. Makes me feel accomplished and progressing when there are much more daunting things adorning the list. It also helps when I get sidetracked, that way I can still come back to it and be like,

"Hey look at all these checks, these definitely justify all that time I just wasted doing random unnecessary things."

That way I don't have to think about the giant tasks still checkless for a little longer. 

Unfortunately those tasks are zooming into view quite rapidly and I am being forced to deal with them now. Ugh, one foot in front of the other. I feel like I need one of those famous inspirational speeches just to get me out of bed in the morning, maybe I will look into making one my alarm because seriously it's a task. I should be able to check "Get out of bed" off my check list every morning. 

The latest distractions are becoming much more distracting as of late as well. No longer is the cuteness of my adorable dog persuading me from the task at hand but much more serious, time consuming, brain conundruming (Someone call webster dictionary, that needs to be a word) distractions. Ones that even are just making me feel pushed down to my knees in inadequacy, it's becoming more frustrating than when you put your headphones in your pockets and they some how manage to tangle themselves into un-untangleable (Look at all these new words) knots in 2.5 seconds. Or when you you can't find the pair to a sock after washing them when you know for a 100% fact that you put them in the together, its like,

"What the firetruck? My dryer eats socks!" 

Then you're left wondering where that other sock is for weeks..

 Yeah, that frustrating. 

Grr. 

Maybe sleep will help focus my mind. 

Strangely enough February is just not a good month for sleep it is proving this year and last. Too many things on my mind, again, and again I wish I had an off button for my brain.